Konbawa =)

Today exam paper for Psychology in Group Dynamic. It was somehow tricky through out the whole entire MCQ. I felt shagged cause the paper was at 9am. How the bloody hell on earth can my brain work at 9am. It has been a while since i woke up early. Class has always been 12pm onward and now the paper is at 9am.

And just like how i predicted, i somehow slept for God know how long. I am so sleepy and so disappointed in myself. I shall stop conditioned myself to fit into my own needs. Sometimes, something need to change and i need to adapt to new changes.

But no matter what is it, i am happy that i put all my effort in it. I may not be studying type of girl. But at least good 4 hours of learning everyday (inclusive of my day dreaming every 10 mints) i sure ace somewhere. I should be proud of myself for crossing over another hurdle.

Anyway recently i am addicted to PLAYZONE, it is a stage play. It is somewhat like Dream Boys (Stage play). This time Kis-my-ft2 lead PLAYZONE so that is why it is special to me.

Labels: Fujigaya Taisuke, Kis-my-ft2, Playzone

I managed to survive 2 days and the half of 2010 without any pit fall. Except mini-arguments with my mom. Sometimes i wonder, do we need to argue all the time just because we are close? Sometimes i feel like if you love someone and always in cloud 9, don't the person think it is really fake? Cause even siblings fight. Married couple still argue. Yet it does not effect the bond.

But than again, there are many different level of trust. Many different theory of love. Hence it is hard to just stick to one theory or one said. We are born the be creative in our own ways. Nevertheless when we are creative, sometimes we have to compete with people who are equally creative. So what does that mean about being creative in our own way and yet there's a need to compete?

Am i lost in translation part II?

Exam is in few days time. Am i prepared? No. Am i scared? Yes. The art of failing is having the courage to stand up. The art of acing everything is the ability to have more pride. Life is scary but human brain is complex.

I feel like as we grew older, there are many 'No' is our live than 'Yes'. There are many rules to follow. There are many things we just can't no longer do. Perhaps when i was 16 and praying to be 21 is coming true for this year. But 16 year old me never realize the pain to be an adult.

So much false hope and placebo. How i wonder sometimes, why do i still survive in the world that have so much hates. So much pain. And yet i still feel secure, still wanting to reach out for that one unconditional love.

Anyway i did another screencaps =) It is the only artificial happiness i built for now. For how long this madness will last, i've yet to figure out. This time let see Clinic Dr VS Surgeon Dr and perhaps a scientist. SENSEI.... here i come.

Labels: 1 litres of tears, Code Blue, Galileo, Haruma Miura, Jared Leto, Jdrama, ryo nishikido, Yamashita Tomohisa

Konnichiwa! Hajimemashite. Dozo yoroshiku ?

This is my 789th posts. A new year will begin tmr onward.. to be exact by midnight today. Some people will be down for countdown, some people will have mini gathering. Some love will spark somewhere. Some people will break up some place too.

Like all other years before 2009, i welcome a new year with peace and quiet. I don't embrace new year like what the norm does. Somehow a new year is just like any other day.

Similar to any year, i did not have any resolution except you will constantly hear me say this every year: find a boyfriend and get marry immediately. Which sort of nonsense to me, especially the fact that i am so career minded path. I don't think companionship going to come by really soon.

Sometimes i even wonder if i should get marry. To me marriage is a choice. I want to save my money and hopeful when i am old enough, i can retire somewhere peacefully. I see 60 and above Singaporean still working really hard. I wonder if we live to earn a living but never really anticipate what is the real definition of 'living' at all.

Hence may 2010 will be another new challenges to face. New tears to shed. New Joy to welcome. May everyone that i know or knew or cross path before have healthy lifestyle and may God bless you in any way.

Forgive my sins, my wrongs to you, my mistakes or any other cause of awkwardness that i cause through 2009. May you help me grow a better living lifestyle as i hope to pray the better for you.

Also, if there is any entry in 2009 that may seems to hurt or point directly to you, remember whatever you read is all about mind over matter. It is always depend how you perceived it. Above all words, thank you for Supporting Flick101studio throughout the years. May many more post in the future =) Happy New Year Netizens!

anyway... let's not make you readers think too much. No one supposed to welcome New Year as sadist as me. Anyway i made another caption of Haruma. Yes i'm crazy and you're saint.

This is way back when he was 15-16?

Labels: 14 Sai No Haha, Anego, B.A.D, Gokusen Movie, Haruma Miura, Jdrama, Jin Akanishi, Kamenashi Kazuya, Takaki Yuya, Tamamori Yuta, Yukan Club

Konnichiwa.

Next week mark the first week of exam. I am thrilled yet un-prepared. My concentration level has become shorter than expected. I see myself wondering instead of learning. I kept day dreaming and kept thinking of what to do after exam.

You see, 2 weeks of exam and right after that, i have nothing to do except concentrate on GP. I does not need to come to school all the way to March which is the submit of GP. So what should i do for the next few weeks? Work?

2010 is approaching real soon. But for the first time i does not want 2009 to end. Usually people are eager to close a chapter and start fresh. But this time i want it to pause for a while. Let me think what i should do for 2010 and future before proceeding.

The idea of starting all over again is really tiring.

Anyway before i am going to start "trying" to study i went through my browser as i am listening to Gackt -Returner. Eventually, i Goggle the song and realize how much i miss watching Byakkotai which acted by Yamashita Tomohisa (NEWs), Tanaka Koki (KAT-TUN) and Fujigaya Taisuke (Kis-my-ft2).




*Byakkotai is the history of group of around 305 young, teenage, samurai of the Aizu domain, who fought in the Boshin War.*

I know this is somehow irrelevant to my future. But somehow, since i wanted to pause before proceeding to 2010, i see myself in love with the history.

Above trailer, is a fanmade of the short-movie of Byakkotai of the last era of Samurai. I love Samurai. The idea of disciplinary, the idea of sacrifices make life worth fighting for. How people back then suffer so much and yet they do everything till their last breath.

We whom know nothing much about suffering, whining over the smallest matter. Why oh why?

Labels: Byakkotai, Fujigaya Taisuke, Haruma Miura, Jdrama, Jmovie, Kat-tun, Kis-my-ft2, Tanaka Koki, Yamashita Tomohisa

I miss my Blaze Clique really much! (sounds broken english) Lately, it seems so hard to just to hang out with people. I see myself replying 'no' to almost every outing. The best part of all, I've been absent for far too long.

And so i went to our Blaze Clique FB profile (Yes, we're superstar cause you're not) and happily clicking to the discussion board. Guess what i found! Created post on Nov 22 09 on First impression basis.

And since i am having some extra time for myself, why not dedicate an entry for my beloved Blaze Clique. They said better be late than not.

FYI: First impression may hurt if i you tell the truth, but it is the bias thought to begin with. So chill, sit back and let me take you for the 'First Impression' RIDE.

To come and think about it, we are still new to each other. But we treat each other with care and almost like family. Blaze Clique originally meet in 2007. We were at Aloha Loyang but none of us acknowledge each other.

The fact that we were from 5 different campus, make it so hard to clique due to perhaps rivalry of school. We somehow socialize with each other during our Investiture Nov 02 2007 and by early January 2008, all of us are down for our leadership camp at Aloha Changi.

And the rest is history. =) Introduction by alphabetic way.



'Ak and i came from the same school. (FYI:ITE DOVER). We're from the same department but different class. I first saw her was at SC room. I was waiting in line alone and there goes this Chinese looking girl walk in and out of the room. The best part of all, i am all alone and waiting for my interview for the past 10 minutes but she cut my cue. -.-"

And there goes my first impression. Cut cue-girl! 'Ak is damn famous in school ok! Since Dover popularity are mainly boys, they go gugugaga over 'Ak due to (ahem..then) she wore short skirt. So everywhere i go people will be either talking about her skirt or simply said she is like the coolest girl ever.

Of course i don't ok! Cause she cut my cue! Read again: cut cue! Then come our first time in the same room. First ever Student Council meeting. She happened to know a friend of mine, whom help us have our proper introduction together. The conversation goes like this

Labels: Blaze Clique, CDSS, Pay Attention Stay Awake