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Friday, September 26, 2008 @ Friday, September 26, 2008
TGIF *This shall be a long entry. So don't bother to read anyway. (breathe in. breathe out) I was beginning to understand now. Not that i was thinking of you. Not that i can't get you out of my system. But this morning, i just came to terms. You were there for me all along. I mean that was then. You neither near nor far. Just there and i expect you to be close for TWENTYFOURSEVEN. I was young then. Naive and insecure. But we were neither friend nor in relationship. We were each other best companion. And i know why you made me wait. I know now and i finally understand. I was too young to understand anything serious. And all you want is me having my own way of life. Score what i need to score at 16. Because you know all along, if were were to be together; you will control me. Even so actually you did. As years passed you watched me mature be stubborn and i let you go. And i blame you for everything but not myself. But maybe today i realize you were right about one thing. I have always been too young to start anything serious. Maybe if we have each other i would give up what i supposed to be now. Maybe if we have each other; we would lose each other faster. But my fool darling 3 years didn't taught me revolution love till 1 year separation from you. Thanks for the friendster e-mail by the way. Changing my number is not = to escape from you. I don't fear you like i did last year. You were nothing to me now. We no longer each other best companion & it is best to be that way. Go cheat on other girls like how you cheated on me. Life i care your shady life. ILT STILL. Raya song still cannot get me in the mood of celebration. My house preparation is at 20%. The whole family just can't care less anymore. We prefer normal days where visitors are less expected. Exes are like telemarketers. Unavoidable but freeking annoying. ![]() Love my Crap. Clickhere2comment |